October 15^th, 2013

At this point, I can be 99% sure the father is going to bail. He's going to give me money but he thinks it's optional to be at least a little bit of a father to our kid.

I'm angry and I'm sad and that is all there is as far as feelings right now.

And right now, I know that if I wasn't carrying another person, I'd be just fine with dying.

I'm so scared. I can't do this alone.

I'm so done.