October 16^th, 2013

I was pretty sure I'd be talking to Eddie today. He messaged me on Facebook telling me that he would call me, provided he get his phone issues worked out.

But it's nearing 8pm and I haven't gotten a phone call. I figure either his phone is still out of business or he's a tad too nervous to talk to me quite yet.

I'd really like to stay optimistic here and imagine the best. Maybe he'll read my messages to him and see how much I need him and we can work on a compromise.

Yeah, maybe I guess. But more likely is that he's already made up his mind to take the easy way out.

Everything I've heard is that even people with aspergers can work through things like this. And he really can if he were to give it a try. It'd all be worth it.

But like I said, I think he's decided to trade his integrity and backbone for an easier life.

I can do it alone if I have to, though. I just really, really would rather have his support. Especially considering he is just as much a "culprit" as I am. I mean, we discussed this. Both before and after the sex in question.

I just hope he knows it's the wrong decision. Morally wrong, yes. But he's missing out on someone brilliant, and that's wrong too.

I bought this today because it is cute and I wanted to log this stuff away for my son or daughter to read one day.